Thank God.

Hi, Long time no see. :)

It's great to be back with full of joy!

I thank God for his wonderful love, that He placed me at The Studio.
With Jonny, Jennifer, Haz, Krystelle, Feeka, Natalia, and Krishna.
Also with the other clients, and friends that we have met.

I just want to keep filling myself with God's grace and presence.
I wanna influence the people out there with God's love.

Thank God for Your mercy, Your forgiveness, Your Patience upon me.
Truly grateful.

Your Child,
Joanna Koh
 

 

[D] I actually dreamt of you last night.

We actually became couple.

I stunned, what a sweet dream. [D]

Them.

All, not in order. NO ranking here.

J.Y.E.R - 1993 March 5
she's my babe, she's once my wifey. we were so closed before these. i still miss those moments that we spent together till today. i always "stalk" your facebook profile. even though i knew you were in the hospital for a few days, i wanted to give you a little greeting, just to ask "how are you?", but i still din't take any action. Neither me dont know why. I have alot of words for you, alot of life happenings to tell you like how we did before. We even can't wait to meet each other when we knew that we can meet each other on a day. remember "beh beh"? imissyou darling Jo. 

I pray that God will put Your hand in her life, her health, her family, and her friends. she need Your love always. You are our healer, our strength. Guide her the ways she wanna step to. 


C.L.T.Y - 1993 April 15
she's one of the most BAD tempered friend i ever met in my life. and she's also one of my closest friend in my life. i often tell myself that's her attitude, her style. i can accept it, so why not just hold tight this friendship? yes, i did it. she owned alot of branded stuffs, expensive materials or whatever those teenagers jealous at, but i knew one thing she's lacking of, a complete family.     i wish i could talk to her dad or mum, but, sounded scary and weird right? i'll just leave it to her then. oh ya, one thing i like about us, our topics is infinity. 

I pray that God will give her strength to face all her challenges in her life. I also pray that God will  soften her parent, aunt, uncle, grandmother, her cousins and all her relatives' heart, let them show more love to each other.



C.L.Y - 1993 August 27
We were once closed before, i forgot it was form 1 or form 2. i knew i always ran to her house before or after school. i love her family, her brothers. her mum is my god-mother. she's one of the perfectionist i knew in my life. most of our topics were foods, and nonsense stuffs. she's the one that keep reminding me the importance of family's love unintentionally. we used to fight in silence, but today, we are babes! i wonder why she can maintain her body weight between 50-60kg even though she always eat like nobody's business. i miss her drawings! im still keeping her drawing "Winx Club vs 5N" beside the wall of my bed!  so basically i will see that drawing whenever i go to my bed. 

i pray that God will keep blessing her family. Pour Your blessings unto her and let her spread your gospel to the people outside there.


H.W.K - 1989 August 18
his the one that brought me to see life in different ways. he brought me to my turning point in my life. he's short, he had a baby face, but he's fast. he thought me alot of principles of life. he's the one that kept remind me to turn my eyes to the Lord. we lost contact after sometime, i wish to get back to him but there is something stopping me, and i knew what is it. i hope he will have a blast in his life. 

i pray that God will keep pouring His blessing towards him. He's your follower. turn his eyes towards you all the time, lead him not into any temptations.


C.K.M - 1988 August 12
he's the one that i can pour out all my feelings to him. one thing i love to be with him, he's a follower of God. he's a good listener, he tuned his crazy level lower after so many complains from others of him being too crazy all the time. and the result was amazing! he knew how to manage his emotional from time to time. i can feel the warmness from him whenever i hug him. he's like my big big brother. Continue serving God, from day to day.

i pray that God will continue bless his family, guide him to bring his family to be your believer. keep his faith on You, and bless him wherever he goes.


T.S.L - 1993 February 8
she's a girl that trying her best to be the best. she's the owner of the ring on my left middle finger. i can feel that she's having quite an amount of pains in her heart, and i couldn't do anything for her. we used to have few "midnight talks" before, but definitely i couldn't have "midnight texts" with her, for sure i will suddenly disappeared > accidentally slept, and she already get used of it. before this, i just couldn't "share" her with others, but i realized we have alot of arguments due to my selfishness, i want her to always stick with me. my faith towards this friendship not enough strong i guess. but after sometime, after a "cold war", we pour out what we feel on my 19th birthday. i told her i seemed like ignoring the problem in us, but i seriously don't know how to do and what to say to her at that period of time. but, everything is done! i promised her that i wont simply think and gain more trust in this friendship. i might don't act like "i so care of her" like last time, but in my heart, the "level" that me still care of her, still remain.

i pray that God will keep Your eyes and blessings upon her and her family. Pray that she will have a breakthrough in her life. guide her through her problems, and heal every physical and mentally pain in her.


S.B.A - 1993 November 4
she's a cheerful girl. our friendship started since our primary school. we used to have a stable relationship since that time. Oh no, we had a big' "fight" when we're in form 1. after that, so so lah~our friendship build up again when we first started our band: Feb 29. we share lots of stuffs,  and i love communicate with her using Chinese. we kept cheering each other up when anyone of us have emotional breakdown. i love our friendship. she's one of the perfectionist i knew. and she loves to be clean! i'll miss her suddenly after she leaved KL for her studies. 

i pray to God that You will protect her when she's not with her family now. show her your love, and guide her in her studies, and help her to manage her time there. 


i thank God that He arranged these precious humans for me. i've learned, quite an amount of lessons during me managing/handling/facing those problems between all these humans. i love all of them. i couldn't imagine how my life would be without them. definitely wouldn't be better! I appreciate.  

WIill be at my tumblr! Do check it out! :)

http://joakse.tumblr.com/


Love,
Joanna Koh

nah. lots of car shots nowadays. teehee.



I WON'T say SORRY for not updating my blog for weeks!
nah, because i really lazy, and its hard to express it using ENGLISH Lahh!!



just updating just the sick of updating. :D
see ya aliens!
my fb! its public again!
and if you knew chinese, can go visit my another blog..
Click >> 思恩。貝貝



Lots of things channged nowadays.
yea, sometimes its hard to accept but i still need to and i did it!
woots! i'll reach my dream one day.



He is always here.
and little boy also always here.



love,
joanna koh

weather in Raub, Pahang. :)


its been a long time i dint update my english blog.
i left this behind.. :(


Pencil: I'm sorry Eraser: For what? You didn't do anything wrong. Pencil: I'm sorry cos you get hurt bcos of me. Whenever I made a mistake, you're always there to erase it. But as you make my mistakes vanish, you lose a part of yourself. You get smaller and smaller each time.
Eraser: That's true. But I don't really mind. You see, I was made to do this. I was made to help you whenever you do something wrong. Even though one day, I know I'll be gone and you'll replace me with a new one, I'm actually happy with my job. So please, stop worrying. I hate seeing you sad. :)

I found this conversation between the pencil and the eraser very inspirational. Parents are like the eraser whereas their children are the pencil. They're always there for their children, cleaning up their mistakes. Sometimes along the way... they get hurt, and become smaller (older, and eventually pass on). Though their children will eventually find someone new (spouse), but parents are still happy with what they do for their children, and will always hate seeing their precious ones worrying, or sad.

"All my life, I've been the pencil.. And it pains me to see the eraser that is my parents getting smaller and smaller each day. For I know that one day, all that I'm left with would be eraser shavings and memories of what I used to have..." This is to all the parents out there...


is touched.


love,
joanna koh

working look! Office Lady. ")


oh hey i locked certain parts of my facebook due to some reasons.
i'll try to update my status here. :)



as usual, working in business now..
and im glad to say that i've learnt tons! ")


there are someone supporting me always.
thx uncle Thomas!
and i met his son, Eric! :)
but im not interested on him. woots! XD




i need to really train my patience on this.
need to accept dad's temper.
oh gosh, its really hard.



i dont wanna get piss off one day.
i mean the real piss off, just pray for me. :D




someone wants a tattoo!
opps, NOWAY! :X




if you dare, show the real you.
actually im kinda piss that you lied and put the wrong on me.
but, so what? thats the past.
just dont do it again.




why there are 3 now?
three persons done the same thing wei.
i thought is abnormal, but it seems like a normal thing. :(



i dont wanna be the targeted one! :(




love,
joanna koh.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!
2011, YEAH! :)

enjoyed those moments with you guys and girls..
new beginning, here we go! :)



love them, love her, love him..
love HIM! :D




ciaoz,
joanna koh!

good news and bad news here... :X


my limited edition sony erricsson w980 had been crashed! :(
okay i really love my phone, but at last...
haiy...
YOU're still my baby! im proud of YOU! :D



*a car crossed onto my phone and my inner screen damaged. :(



its really extreamy scary to tell my dad bout this..
he'll wack me i thought..
but at last, i told him, he dint wack me, dint even scold me..
and he did promise me to buy a new one for me.. :)

thx God for it! He worked! He listened our prayers!

yesterday, 28 Dec 2010, i got my new phone..
which is Nokia 5530..
alright, its nice, i love it! :D



really thx for boon for helping me really lots! :D
i appreciate it!
he helped me to buy, he took it for me, and he sent it to my doorstep!
how touched! TT




and you know what?
today my dad told me that he wanna get me an iPhone 3months later..
oh gosh, i dont know whether is true or not..

but i still havent have enough date with my Nokia 5530 yet!! TT

*im not SHOW-OFF-ing.
just expressing my feelings.. :P



i wont let myself to repeat the same mistake again!
no losting my phone again!




love,
joanna koh. :)

side to side, side side to side..
back to life, back back to life..
eyes eyes eyes, eyes eyes eye..

now now now, now now now now..
down down down, down down down down..



HAHAHAHAHA! :D


check this out! :D


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im waiting for your call. :)


wanna watch Rapunzel!!
desperately!! :D



love,
joanna koh.

i love to be in family!!!
yea i love you!! :)



ciaoz..



i love him? yea i love him...
i'll feel so good if im not over.. :)



dont kacau me dii laa!!! TT
pleaseeeee.. TT



loveeee,
joanna koh! :)

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were, but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today




I would hold you in my arms, I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done, forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do to hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you but I know you won't be there



I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you




Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this




Would you tell me I was wrong? Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me? Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do to have just one more chance
To look into your eyes and see you looking back




If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you
Since you've been away



It's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time

Christina Aguilera - Hurt

So let it rain,
Let it pour away,
We wont come down,
Until we hit the ground and pass out!

i miss theresa susanti chan zhao ying! :)
alright she's so special and irreplaceable!!
i love her! :)



alright and too joanna yeong ean rou! :)
she's my dearest babe, irreplaceable!!
i love her! :)





love,
joanna koh. :D

here's me! :)



oh hey im like so happy now, because NO MORE SEHARAH!
oh yeah! :)



listening TVXQ's 'On & On'.
i missed them, i want the FIVE back.
is TVXQ, not JYJ!



love love love?
sorry ah, i dont really wanna care bout that dii.



just balance it, everything will be alright. :)
Love you! :)



im being blessed here, no worries!
take care!



love,
joanna koh.

JYJ - Still In Love.

I love him. :)
too much 'second chances'.

I’m still in love still in love but
She’s thinking of everyone but
The very one
I should move on but
Who’s still in love

im alright! study!!! hehehe. :)




love,
joanna koh.

sorry i did it wrong, i mean yesterday.
shouldn't be so emo, just simply thinking.
dont feel any offense huh.
i dont meant that, especially that 'replacement'.
goodness! why i wrote that!!



sorry sorry, hehe.
i'll do what i promised kay?
take care!
see you soon! :)



love,
joanna koh.

i wanna make it clear.
really clear, i lost something.




damn, feeling so bad right now.
what should i do right now?
suddenly feel like slapping myself.
feel that wanna have a long long walk.




felt myself so PERASAN!
ish!
hate this feeling!



ANTI SELF-CENTERED!




joanna koh.

hope to be like this everyday, everytime.



speechless.....




sort of, sad.
am i really that dangerous?
im not that kind of person!



but nevermind, you will get it one day.
im gald that you will choose to be with me when you need someone.
although just a 'replacement', its alright.




its hard to be positive all the while, honestly.
BUT I NEED!
what to do?! i cant be so selfish!



just let it be, pass it to God.
He will always be my side.




love,
joanna koh.

memories. loves. :)
1st time used so MUCH money on that. :D



im leaving. leaving. LALALALA. :)


i love them.
hehehehe. :D


SPM! after that hows our relationship?
hope to keep in touch always. :(



i missed those time im with jeremiiee RT and kenneth CKC. :X
ouchhhh!!




love,
joanna koh.

i'll EAT YOU UP!
I WANNA TAKE YOU TO, MY ROOM. ;D

When I first saw you I knew nothing's like it used to be
Boy you have got to be the finest thing in history
The way I feel inside is just so hard to understand
You'd be my appetite in ways I can't explain



I'll eat you up
So yum yum
Can't get enough
I think I'm in love


If you move any closer boy there is no guarantee
What I will do to you I fear it and it's scaring me
Like I've become some kind of demon in the night
You look so tasty and I could eat you up alive


Can't stop thinking 'bout all the things I wanna do to you
If you move any closer you'd be asking for it too
I want your love
I need your touch
So much I think I'm in love



com' on! XD
yes you're the one my dear. :)





love,
joanna koh.